Changes

"There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them."

I am choosing to change my conditions....

I will no longer let certain people have power over me, my emotions, or my family
I will no longer waste my time or energy trying to change certain circumstances that I know I cannot change...I will learn not to care and to realize I am better than that
I will work hard to be independent and show my son that I am strong and that we can make it on our own, together, as a family
I will strive to better myself physically, not only because I want to lose weight but because I want to be healthy and have more energy
I will learn to be more patient, mostly with my son but with others as well
I will realize that I work hard raising my son, working, going to school, running a support group and that I DESERVE to be happy and have a life on my own. I will no longer let anyone make me feel like I am not worthy of that.
I will start to make better financial decisions instead of putting myself deeper into the hole I am in.

I am going to change...for the better...and that means letting go of all the preconceived notions that I had about my marriage, my family, my son's relationship with his father, etc and moving on to the new life that is in store for Dylan and I. Someday I will look back on this time and know exactly why I had to go through this....

Peace.