It is just one of those nights when everything is pissing me off.. I won't even begin to name what is pissing me off because it is stupid and pathetic and of no importance and its me just whining like a little baby...I just have to think of that song "me, myself, and I"... I am my own best friend... I need to stop worrying about stupid crap and letting other people affect how I feel. My gym challenge started today... I weighed myself last thursday and I was 175.8..today I was 171 even...water weight I am sure but I am getting there.. I was nothing more to lose this weight, keep it off and feel damn good about myself. There were a bunch of fat chicks at the place we were tonight dancing..ones ass crack was hanging out...that was even more motivation to add to my list.. I don't want to be one of the fat girls anymore, I have lived enough of my life being one. I guarentee you I will be in a bikini by summer and I will wear that bikini on vacation that I will be paying for with the money I win from the Gold Gym challenge..I don't want to win.. I am going to win..going to pay off my bills, go on a vacation and get a DIVORCE...I have all the motivation in the world.