Honestly, I am sooo tired I do not know why I am staying up to write. It is only 10 oclock and I am exhausted but I have felt this way all day. I tried to go to the gym this morning but Dylan freaked out in the child care room. I left him..went upstairs and put my stuff in the locker and came back down to peak and he was crying so I went in for a few minutes and tried to leave and he had the most pathetic little pout I just couldnt leave him so we left and I took him for breakfast at his favorite place for "morning hot dogs". I was sitting there waiting for the check and the lady never brought it so i went up there and asked for the check and they said it was taken care of..the waitress paid out bill. I really have no idea why...it was amazingly nice of her.. I did not even have any cash to tip her, I felt bad. There are some really nice people in this world. Tomorrow I have a personal training session to learn to use the weight machines and stuff. I am excited because there is no way I would try them by myself. If I learn to use them correctly I will keep using them. I am also signing up for the fit challenge. It would be amazing to win. I think the winner wins 12,000. Do you know what that would do for me? I could pay off all my debt and afford to be divorced. That fact alone gives me the motivation to do this, not even the good effects it will have on my body lol. It's a 12 week challenge but I will have to be hardcore like at the gym all the time and it would be beneficial to have a personal trainer. If I had the money to put out for one I would because if you think about it $50 a week for 12 weeks is $600 and that would probably greatly increase my odds of winning the $12,000...well worth it!!!!! My trainer said I am a good candidate.. I guess because I look like shit but have the possibility of making some great changes in 3 months!! LOL. Well it cannot hurt to try and I am going to put all my effort into this. I have started to look for new places to live. I hate waiting ..I am a planner so I am doing it now. I figure if I find a place I can move earlier than April and be settled instead of waiting last minute. If I find a place I am planning on only giving my landlord a months notice but obviously he doesn't need the money since he has not picked up the rent check yet. I am looking at some cheaper places and some more expensive places.. If I get a more expensive place I have to make sure I get 2 roommates which will be hard for many reasons but I could live in a beautiful place for the same amount versus a crappier place. I am seeing one tomorrow and one on Monday so we will see. I am happy the weekend is here I guess..although I have nothing to do and no free time. My mom isn't coming and i am not going there. The only things to do cost too much money. I like to take Dylan to to the movies and to play ski ball..Ski ball is cheap but movies is ridiculousl expensive...Dylan needs popcorn and a big thing of skittles and of course a darn soda. LOL. It costs over $30 when we go...and now that I mention soda today at breakfast he was freaking out wanting my soda but it was all gone so everytime a waitress walked by he would say "SODA".... LOL..like fill up this cup now because I throw a fit...oh man what have I done...

Goodnight!