I'm back...

Well, back to the blogging world! I always seem to start, write one or two entries and then forget about it for a year...and its been 11 months since my last post so almost a year! LOL. I was starting to think about the past like when we brought Dylan home and the past 3 years of his life and how I have nothing documenting the little things. I know someday I would love to go back and read about our days, the new things Dylan learned and the funny little things he does to make me smile. So this is my early New Years resolution that I will be writing in this blog very often!!! So Shawn and I have been separated for 11 months and 7 days. I cannot believe it has almost been a year. I am finally moving through the process and starting to feel like myself again. I was stuck in the anger phase for WAY to long. I feel good now...ready to move on with my life, ready to meet new people. I actually find myself thinking about meeting a man and getting married again and even about having more kids..which is really weird for me because I never wanted anymore kids. Of course all of this is a long ways away from now if it even happens at all. I would be perfectly content raising my son alone...although it does get a little lonely. I now that no man will ever replace Dylan's father but it would be nice to have someone here raising him with me and being a daily influence in his life. I know it would be a great thing for Dylan..and for me...So everything else is going pretty well. Dylan is doing great in school and seems to really enjoy it. I have been a little up in the air about keeping him there or moving him back full time to MSD but everyday when I drop him off and he smiles and doesn't cry helps me realize that he is probably where he needs to be ..for now atleast. Dylan is staying very healthy except for a couple pain in the butt ear infections. We have been extremely lucky with his health considering he is around TONS of other children. I guess in the long run the socialization helps his body with the germs. I have just finished my semester in school. I started off with 5 classes and had to withdrawal from one... It was kind of depressing but considering the state of mind that I was in for the entire semester I am surprised I finished 4 of them. I got an A in my ASL class of course (LOL) and I am still waiting on the grades from my other classes. Since Dylan's surgery is in May I am only taking 2 online classes and not doing ASL 2. I don't want to take on too much and most likely ASL finals will fall shortly after his surgery. I cannot believe that it is tentatively 4 1/2 months away. :( It is so hard to give up my HEALTHY little boy for this surgery. I know he NEEDS it but he is doing so well that its hard to understand sometimes. I mean if he was blue , out of breath, always sick, etc, etc, we would SEE the need for the surgery but with Dylan we don't see it so it makes it even harder in a way. I am afraid he will come out worse off...okay, I am not going to get all depressed or anything. I am just enjoying my time with Dylan and know that it is just another bump in the road and that my little fighter will get through this one with flying colors. Christmas is almost here and I am almost ready..doing a small Christmas for everyone..except Dylan of course. Not sure how things are going to go with Shawn and I but I just want to have the best Christmas for Dylan as possible. He is really into Santa this year...it is so fun! Well I feel like there is so much to catch up on but I have so many things to do tonight before bed. We are leaving Friday for my mom's and tomorrow I will be babysitting and then heading to The Shakespeare Theatre with Angie to see the Twelfth Night so I won't really have time to get things done. I am excited to get to see a show! The tickets were donated for our Mended Little Heart's silent auction and my mom bid on them for me :) I have been having a hard time over the last week with Dylan and his bedtime routine..he was waking up soon after going to sleep and crying for a long time. Last night he did great so tonight I tried to keep him up later (like last night) so we will see how that works. He is sooo funny..He has this little calculator that he has to sleep with at night and he calls it his phone. He had it down in the basement and wouldnt go to sleep until he had it. I went down to get it but couldn't find it so he came down both flights of stairs and went right to it in the spot he hid it in. LOL I don't know how he expected me to find it. He also has to sleep with a book, his little fake fish tank on, his dora story time projector, a random hat and his newest thing is this snow man necklace that Uncle Donny bought for him at the Winterfest of Lights...he cracks me up :)