Merry Christmas!

As I sit here next to my snoring little boy I reflect on the day and I am so happy and blessed to have spent it with such great people that I am lucky enough to call my family. I have the most amazing parents in the world. They would do anything for Dylan and I and do so on a daily basis. I do not know what I would do without my mom..she is truly my rock. She is always there for me when I need her in every way possible. The same with my dad. I do not know what I would do without his help with Dylan. Over the past year he has been there on a drop of a dime to help me out. Dylan absolutely adores both of them. My aunt Sissy, Uncle Frankie, and cousin Michael moved down here almost a year ago from New Jersey. You won't ever meet nicer people than them. They love Dylan like he is their own grandchild, spoil him rotten and always make him smile and laugh. They would do anything for anybody and I am so blessed to be able to have spent my day with them. I also had the chance of visiting my in-laws house today. This is the first Christmas that Shawn and I have been separated so it was hard...but they are still my family. I have spent the last 9 Christmas's with them and it would have broken my heart if it was not the same this year. Despite the separation I have become really close with my sister in law and brother in law and I also got to see my nephew on his first Christmas. While it brings me so much joy to be there it is also bittersweet knowing that this will probably be the last year that I spend with my "family". It is hard to come to terms with all of the things you lose with a divorce..it is not only about two people..its about two families that have been joined together for almost a decade....and much more. My MIL and SIL surprised me with a peacoat that I have been wanting and they did not have to do that at all..it was very generous and I was very excited. All in all it was an amazing Christmas. Dylan is starting to get an idea of what Christmas is all about (well, for a child) so it makes it even more exciting. Today, when I was starting to feel a little bit of the bitterness come back with everything that has been going on..I looked at my son and how AMAZING he is doing....how smart he is...how happy he is....how healthy he is...and I know that I am doing something right.....and that is all that matters in my world....