My baby is sick

Last night we left around 6:15 to head to my moms. This is the first time in awhile that i tried to go before Dylan's bedtime. He is not a very happy camper in the car. Usually he would scream the entire time..when he was younger he would even make himself throw up..it was horrible. But, I hooked up the DVD player and made sure I had some of his electronic toys and he did just great. He is not feeling well so I do not know if that had anything to do with it or not. He stayed awake until we got to Salisbury and then he couldn't say awake any longer. I knew he was trying to stay awake because he was so excited about going to Gampy and Gammys! On the way home we stopped at Mcdonalds...it was the same Mcdonalds that we stopped at when my mom was driving me to see Dylan after my c-section and Dylan was flown to DC. All of a sudden I relived all of the emotions that I was feeling that day..It really freaked me out. I have never felt that way even everytime I am at the hospital. I don't know why it happened, it was weird. Today I took Dylan to Salisbury for some shopping and lunch. It was impossible to shop because it was so busy and Dylan was not feeling well at all. We came home and he had a 101.7 fever. I gave him some motrin and he seems much better. Karla called and invited me to a Redskins/Eagles game tomorrow. I REALLY want to go but it's probably not the best idea. I would have to leave Dylan, drive to DC and probably stay there overnight. I think it is suppose to rain as well. The game would signify a lot to me. I would of course be hoping that the Red Skins win...because I was only an Eagles fan by marriage ....and well I am not in that marriage anymore! LOL. Shawn has never been to a game so I almost would have felt guilty...but screw that.. I really feel like he honestly doesn't give a crap about me anymore.. I guess its easy for him to get over a 9 year relatioship (unless he *needs* something of course). Our 6th Anniversary will be on December 27th...fun....sorry thats the extent of my venting for the day :)